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The all-powerful protagonist rises again
And when you come out of your state of misery, you will no more able to connect to your savior. because your savior was not a human being, was a tiny little actor sent by God for your rescue, because you are the protagonist, the most important person in the world. You will start getting irritated by this savior. He wouldn’t be needed now, as he was just a help to the protagonist, that the protagonist anyways deserved!
Now you will again try to help people, care for them, uplift them, and do things that a hero does. But because you are in your story, and everyone in your life is in their stories, and just like you, everyone deserves your help because you are just a divine intervention they desired and they deserved, even after all the heroics, no one will talk about you, hailing your heroics.
The way you did not learn to appreciate anyone, they did not learn to appreciate anyone, and thus everyone keeps chasing a situation where everyone appreciates them and acknowledges the heroics of their protagonists.
The conflict stage: the dark side of the protagonist
All right, people have not understood your good deeds. People have not acknowledged your heroics. People and life have been unfair to you. It is time to “get real” and show the world what you can do. Because your story is now completely negative, and the story is not at all moving, and because you are in contrast, you would be looking for friction, in reality, to get out of your negative story.
Now your brain will search for conflict in real life. It will search for a villain to take on. You don’t have to search. Everyone in your life is the villain. You will start picking up silly but violent fights against people whom you think you loved(in reality hoping to rescue). You will act aggressively and you will “stand for yourself” (but because you are in contrast, you can not realize the absolute state of standing for yourself as long as you don’t see others fall), and so will do everything to bring them down.
You did not get attention by positivity, but as you are causing negative feelings, and threatening to damage the “reputation” of others, you will draw their attention and then you with other people will get entangled into a reality of battle.
In your imagination, you will plan, scheme, and strategize a victory in this battle. Now your brain is doing something positive because it is using all its knowledge(in reality the stories from the past) to make you victorious.
If you lose the battle, you will feel validated for your victim syndrome, and if you win your protagonist will get validated. In such a fight, win and loss both are yours. But the protagonist is caring and can not hurt anyone.
The good person syndrome
So when you see that you have hurt and harmed the one you once cared for, you will again feel pain, and feel bad about yourself. All right, you have again come back to the starting point of your story of feeling bad in reality, and now you will have a chance of feeling good.
Now you will get closer to “spirituality” and away from “strong and standing for yourself” you will feel guilty and ashamed and will take your steps to become a “good human being.” You will never hurt anyone and only will love others.