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F. Progression of the Protagonist Syndrome
Nothing but you matter
In your imagination, you think about yourself, your bad feelings, your good feelings, and your experiences. Other people in your life are in reality small tiny actors in your story. Even your other personas like your father/mother persona and your son/daughter persona are tiny. The reason you feel others are less kind to you than you are to them is that your brain is insensitive to anything that is absolute.
You are good, others are bad
Because you are the protagonist, the protagonist has to be good, kind, caring, intelligent, emotional, and empathetic. And because your brain can only comprehend contrasting feelings, it will be sensitive to only the negative events in life and acts of people that are negative to you.
And because you stay in the negative state on average, anything you do will become contrasting and you will feel positive to the others.
Unhappiness
Nothing will make you happy and you will always convince yourself “If I get that, I will be happy,” and will keep running after different things in search of happiness, without even realizing that you are in a story, and your ultimate happiness will come only at the end of the story. If you keep remaining happy, it is the end of the story.
Dissatisfied life
So you will start living a dissatisfied life, with complaints against other people(because you have contrast, you will tell yourself that I have no complaint against anyone), envy, jealousy, hate(and because you have contrast, you will feel I don’t hate anyone. You will become irritated with the slightest of things that don’t give you good feelings. You will lose patience very fast. You will try hard to appear happy(and because you are in contrast, your face and eye will be like dead when you try hard to smile and laugh).
You will shed tears, but can’t cry, can’t feel sadness, because in your story you are starting every event from negative feelings, and any sad event is not in contrast to what you are already in.
Because of this inherent negative state, and because you are in contrast, you will see everyone else’s life more positive and sorted than yours. Slowly you will be disconnected from everything, every reality, everyone, and will get stuck in your imagination story.
The Rescuer Syndrome
Because you are in contrast and are in the story, you will feel good only when you find a more miserable person than you and are able to rescue that miserable person. This miserable person is another protagonist struck in his/her story. In your interaction, you will feel like rescuing the other person, and the other person will feel the same. Then when you try to share your happiness with the other person whom you rescued, you will be shocked to hear the other person saying how you are being rescued.
Now you will feel another person cheated and betrayed you and has not acknowledged your good deeds(without realizing that you were with the person to feel good by becoming a rescuer in the first place). You will feel horrible, and go away from this person, looking to rescue another person.
The victimhood syndrome
When you fail to become a rescuer in your story over and over again, you will feel like a victim of life. You will now start seeing life as the villain, the Kauravas, the Humbaba who is doing injustice to you, is imprisoning you, and will be praying to God to send you a hero to rescue you. You will hope like Cyndrella that someone comes to your life and rescue you from this state. After all, even Krishan was also troubled by the Kauravas. After all every protagonist will also suffer, and somehow some divine power will come and rescue the protagonist.
If at someone comes into your life to give you good feelings, you will be attached to this person with extreme feelings. This is trauma bonding. You are in a state of suffering, and this new person is the divinity sent for your rescue.
